Confusion

Published on April 27, 2006 By Secret Literary Diary of Malte In Marital Issues

Have you ever been in the middle of the real confusion???
I'm there again, and again. Every day deeper and deeper the confusion drags me in. Drags me in into a mud.
I'm not a bad person. Despite of that what everybody thinks. I'm scared. Every day more and more scared. They use to say with a big, perky confidence--there is always a solution- but here, in my case-there is no sulution at all.
Is he really my soul I was praying for 1o months ago or is he my devil?Or maybe he is my soul, but the devilish part of it?
I got what I wanted and my family is falling apart. I'm falling apart. There is no way. There is something in me what decided to kill me. But this what is killing me is giving me a life at the same time. There is no solution for me. Nobody never was as alone as me. You people, don't have to understand me, just don't despise me just because your souls are bright and shiny.
Hatred is easy, love is scary like hell. I want to sleep, I just want to sleep, sleep, sleeeeeeep.

Comments

aeryck

on Apr 27, 2006

Go to sleep, my friend, go to sleep. I have been very afraid some nights. Afraid of demons and devils in my head, then I imagine that Jesus is standing on my bed and I wrap my arms around his feet and go to sleep, it helps, I sleep and wake and the fear has gone. Until next time. So you go and sleep.....I will pray that you have peace. It may not be quick but it will come. Peace. Sleep in Peace.

Eric.

MasonM

on Apr 27, 2006

I was born in the Great State of Confusion. It's not such a bad place once you get used to it.

aeryck

on Apr 27, 2006

One can get used to eating gravel, but it really messes up your teeth. Go back to bed Mason.

preacherman

on Apr 27, 2006

The pangs and toils of the day shall weaken ones spirit. The load is heavy way too heavy to carry. If only one could relieve us of such a burden? He is here, no need to tarry. Roll this burden off your soul my friend.

Peace
preacherman

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