Hello I don't know what happened but I just decided to stop being brainless anymore. It's getting boring already. Just watched "River's edge". Keane like always bad, bad, bad, boring, bad , whatever. The movie itself medium, some scenes definitely too long without any meaning/ esp. with Keanu, they should cut him a little/ but CRISPIN GLOVER is just awesome, amazing, interesting, crazy. I will only remember him. Going back to me: Stupid, stupid day. Didn't sleep well so I was a lit...

I'ts bright and everything is singing. I'm not sleeping, not sleeping, not sleeping at all. Everybody is talking about important issues. They are talking about very important issues. Very important issues are VERY important. But I , I'm just sitting, just sitting and looking at the courtain. That's vain. Tha't so vain. I piss on their important issues. Oh, I should not talk like that. I should be intelligent, smart, serious, serious, smart and intelligent. At leats pretend my dear, at lea...

Nobody is interested in me. Nobody. Fear and emptiness is sneaking toward my bed. Nobody is interested in me. What can I do? I feel as I'm disappearing. Why. What's wrong with me. What am I doing bad. What is bad in my head. I don't want to vanish. I don't want to.I need more. Help. Say something. Say something exactly to me