Have you ever been in the middle of the real confusion??? I'm there again, and again. Every day deeper and deeper the confusion drags me in. Drags me in into a mud. I'm not a bad person. Despite of that what everybody thinks. I'm scared. Every day more and more scared. They use to say with a big, perky confidence--there is always a solution- but here, in my case-there is no sulution at all. Is he really my soul I was praying for 1o months ago or is he my devil?Or maybe he is my soul, but t...